Okay, I’ll admit it. I’ve gone a bit Pinterest crazy! What began as a sort of mood board for decorating my new home turned into a full-on scrapbook of my interests, personality, work and hobbies. One of the more beautiful things I came across was this quote:
For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream.
– Vincent Van Gogh
Isn’t that delicious?
I’ve been thinking about dreaming today, and the best kind is the sort you do when you’re awake. We had a meeting at church about our search for a new senior Pastor and so we were discussing what everyone saw as our church’s strengths, areas to review, gaps and obstacles. I really enjoyed mulling this over with people, I love to reflect on things and I really appreciate that we can do it in a non-aggressive, healthy way as a church. We began to talk about dreams, and watched the amazing clip of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.’s famous 1963 speech:
When I listen to it, my heart beats faster and frankly, I want to jump up and shout “AMEN BROTHER!” but sadly, I don’t think I can pull that kind of move off. His words resonate with me. What he is saying is truth, but it’s more than that. His passion, his commitment, his pure, uncontainable dream is articulated beautifully by his so human words.
According to Pinterest, I have the same personality type as Pocahontas:
Which means, I will now start singing Disney songs like this one:
I’m not even joking! Sorry in advance if I perforate your ear drums. Sadly, the singing voice doesn’t come as a package deal with personality type. INFP – we’re called the Healer, or sometimes simply the Idealist. I love to dream impractical things, I love to imagine improbable conclusions and I love to hope.
Something started to stir in me at the end of this meeting, something new. Something exciting but also a bit terrifying. When we were talking about gaps in our church, a few of us mentioned a mentoring program. If you’ve read some of my previous posts, you’ll know that I’d love a mentor.
Older women likewise are to be reverent in behaviour, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled. Titus 2:4-5
Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another. Proverbs 27:17
There’s always someone who can disciple us, and there’s always someone we can disciple. I have an amazing peer group at church, many of my friends are spiritually mature and I look to them for advice, but sometimes it takes somebody a little bit older and further on in their Christian journey to ask the challenging questions and encourage spiritual growth. Talking with my church family made me realise I wasn’t the only one who felt the need for a mentor. One of the things I’m finding hard at the moment is how to go about finding one in a wise way. I mean, it’s not entirely socially acceptable to dance up to a random woman after the service and say “hey, wanna mentor me?” is it?
At the end of the meeting, we began to pray for God to open us up to how we could be part of the answer to the ‘gaps’ or areas to review in our church life. That’s when it started, the slightly uncomfortable prodding and the tingling toes.
No, not pins and needles.
I feel like maybe God wants me to be part of setting up a mentoring program at church. EXCITING! But also a bit terrifying for me. I’m really more of a behind-the-scenes kind of girl.
I have a dream. I’m poking at it for a while to see if it truly is from God. It makes my heart beat fast, and I believe in it. I’m passionate about it. I’m uncertain if it’s practical and parts of it scare me.
“But to be safe we lose the chance of ever knowing what’s around the riverbend”.
I have a dream, quite a few as a matter of fact.